The new year vacation in Christ calendar obviously passed by 1 month ago, but as a Vietnamese, I still have another chance to celebrate a LUNAR new year. We can't keep the time or turn it back, but fortunately, spring comes back to us starting a new cycle of life with hopes and dreams. YEAH, hooray, Happy new year, Happy new us.
Anyway, before creating a new year resolution, let's take a look back at an old me on the last 365 days: introverted, full of conflicts and selfish. I am basically quiet in social life, hardly speak out or show up what I think or feel about my relationships or my troubles. It's fine and comfortable to me mostly, but sometime it hurts others due to my outside coldness, then hurts me back. On a next aspect, I feel depressed and unhappy with contradictions inside me, between real-life and expectations, family burdens and personal dreams... And lastly, I am really selfish in the sense that I long for a lot of future plans for my own, but not for anyone else. I know I am not the only one having such problems. I write down them here just to be honest to myself and my life, and release what I hold bottle up for a long time.
Well, please don't blame yourself too much.
ReplyDeleteOne very common mistake is that people usually spend too much time on designing many "plans" which are impossible for all to be carried out. So staying focus and using time effectively are the keys.
Same for personalities. We can't develop many personalities at the same time: being more extrovert, be hard-working, be patient and sympathetic, etc. The harder we work, the more introvert and less sympathetic we tend to be (because our minds concenstrate on our own work). So again, we should not expect too much from ourselves. Just need to improve some key characters.